It has been pretty interesting at our home the last few days. On Sunday, I began feeling chest pain. Although it did not have any other symptoms associated with a heart attack (except slightly higher blood pressure), I became concerned when I began to feel dizzy. I went to the doctor yesterday and the EKG showed no problem with my heart. Nevertheless, the doctor ordered a stress test, which I went through today. Everything looked good, according to the staff, but the cardiologist has to look at the results and write a report. We will know more in the next few days. The worst part of this is the addition of more medical expenses to our list of debts!
Last night Tracey reminded me that the tingling in her fingers and toes is getting worse with each chemo session -- and I learned that this side-effect may not reverse itself once chemo is done. I cannot imagine how hard it most be for her to deal with the sensation of "pins and needles" on her extremities, especially knowing that this may be permanent! Cancer has really taken a lot from Tracey's quality of life.
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Anger and sadness
Bad timing, lack of time, and lots of stress have created a pretty angry environment in our house. When Tracey arrived home on Monday we all sat down to discuss a few family matters. Tracey was tired and was hit hard by the whole meeting. Unfortunately, due to her Chemo session yesterday, it was the only time Ma (Tracey's mom) felt we had to go over these things, especially since Ma is leaving on Thursday (tomorrow). There has been a lot of yelling, angry words, and hurt feelings. I absolutely hate it, especially when the kids (particularly Kayla) are caught in the middle. This is one of those times that I wish I could cry but can't.
Chemo #6
Tracey had Chemo #6 yesterday. Ma took her to the hospital and stayed with her all day. At one point Tracey's blood pressure shot up and the staff had to slow down the Chemo treatment. Ma and Tracey were at the hospital until after 3 PM. When they got home, Tracey was OK to stay up for a while, and took a nap between 4 and 7. Her appetite is good and she seems to be strong! The Oncology staff wants to have an X-Ray of her chest done tomorrow to find out if she is developing pneumonia because she experienced shortness of breath during most of her trip to California.
Maytag Neptune washer defect
Yesterday I found out that the problem we are experiencing with our washer is a well known (and expensive) design flaw in the Neptune front-loading washers. Essentially, moisture gets trapped on the inside of the door, damaging the circuit board that controls the door locking function. If the door fails to lock, then the washer will not spin (a safety feature) and clothes are left socking wet. There is also a problem with the "boot" (a part on the front of the washer) that retains excess water and develops mold. There is a class action suit in progress against Maytag. We are going to try to get a response from Maytag first (although the complaints logged on the Net indicate that Maytag is very unresponsive to consumer's requests for help). If that fails then we will join the class action suit (see Maytag settlement site for more information).
Ethan's passing
For the last few weeks, Tracey and I have been long distance cheerleaders to this little boy from Texas that, despite all odds, survived a rough start in life. Last night he developed an infection and had internal bleeding -- surgery was successful but he was still in critical condition. We learned at 5:35 PM today that Ethan passed. Everyday he reminded me of several valuable lessons: always keep trying, always appreciate every moment, and big miracles come in small packages. We will miss him!
Goals and Wills
One of the areas I have been struggling with is goal-setting. Today I spent a great deal of time reading on goal-setting and also developed a first draft of my Ethical Will. I am a firm believer in the importance of dreams and goals -- but I have not been so good at sticking with the required processes to consistently set and achieve goals. I will correct that situation.
Chemo #6
Tracey had Chemo #6 yesterday. Ma took her to the hospital and stayed with her all day. At one point Tracey's blood pressure shot up and the staff had to slow down the Chemo treatment. Ma and Tracey were at the hospital until after 3 PM. When they got home, Tracey was OK to stay up for a while, and took a nap between 4 and 7. Her appetite is good and she seems to be strong! The Oncology staff wants to have an X-Ray of her chest done tomorrow to find out if she is developing pneumonia because she experienced shortness of breath during most of her trip to California.
Maytag Neptune washer defect
Yesterday I found out that the problem we are experiencing with our washer is a well known (and expensive) design flaw in the Neptune front-loading washers. Essentially, moisture gets trapped on the inside of the door, damaging the circuit board that controls the door locking function. If the door fails to lock, then the washer will not spin (a safety feature) and clothes are left socking wet. There is also a problem with the "boot" (a part on the front of the washer) that retains excess water and develops mold. There is a class action suit in progress against Maytag. We are going to try to get a response from Maytag first (although the complaints logged on the Net indicate that Maytag is very unresponsive to consumer's requests for help). If that fails then we will join the class action suit (see Maytag settlement site for more information).
Ethan's passing
For the last few weeks, Tracey and I have been long distance cheerleaders to this little boy from Texas that, despite all odds, survived a rough start in life. Last night he developed an infection and had internal bleeding -- surgery was successful but he was still in critical condition. We learned at 5:35 PM today that Ethan passed. Everyday he reminded me of several valuable lessons: always keep trying, always appreciate every moment, and big miracles come in small packages. We will miss him!
Goals and Wills
One of the areas I have been struggling with is goal-setting. Today I spent a great deal of time reading on goal-setting and also developed a first draft of my Ethical Will. I am a firm believer in the importance of dreams and goals -- but I have not been so good at sticking with the required processes to consistently set and achieve goals. I will correct that situation.
Monday, October 18, 2004
Tracey is home a winner!
Tracey arrived this evening from California -- she is exhausted but also exhilarated because her tribe won in the Survivor Crop contest! They raised over $6,500! WOO HOO! :-) The even raised more than $50,000 towards breast cancer research and support. Everyone that participated is a REAL winner in my eyes!
Tracey's trip to Charlotte's airport was fairly uneventful (except for a 45 minute delay).
Noah, Tracey's mom and I spent the afternoon window-shopping (mostly) in Statesville, NC (at JR's outlet). We also drove around the NASCAR shops in Mooresville (although we sort of got lost and did not get to see as much as we wanted). Tracey called while we were doing this to let us know she would be at least 30 minutes late, so we decided to wash the car and have dinner to kill some time. The dinner experience (at Denny's) left a lot to be desired (I will write more about it later, because there is a funny side to it).
On the way to the airport we managed to get lost -- again! Even four-year old Noah knew we were lost. From the back seat: "Oh geeze, we are definitely lost!" Both occupants of the front seats bursted laughing.
Tracey's trip to Charlotte's airport was fairly uneventful (except for a 45 minute delay).
Noah, Tracey's mom and I spent the afternoon window-shopping (mostly) in Statesville, NC (at JR's outlet). We also drove around the NASCAR shops in Mooresville (although we sort of got lost and did not get to see as much as we wanted). Tracey called while we were doing this to let us know she would be at least 30 minutes late, so we decided to wash the car and have dinner to kill some time. The dinner experience (at Denny's) left a lot to be desired (I will write more about it later, because there is a funny side to it).
On the way to the airport we managed to get lost -- again! Even four-year old Noah knew we were lost. From the back seat: "Oh geeze, we are definitely lost!" Both occupants of the front seats bursted laughing.
Saturday, October 16, 2004
MacKenzie's First Award
As usual for Saturday, the kids and I went bowling this morning. We got a big surprise when they announced the awards: MacK got her first award! She earned Bowler of the Month for September 2004. Although she does not quite understand what getting an award means, she was very proud of it and showed the plaque to everyone at the bowling alley! :-)
Noah was very proud of MacKenzie, but he was also disappointed that he did not get one himself. Yet, he reacted by trying even harder to bowl well -- and he did! That was a great attitude for a four year old!
Granny Visits
After bowling, MacKenzie and I went to pick-up my Mom ("Granny" to the kids), and took her shopping. Afterwards, we all went home for dinner. It was Halloween taco night! :D
Noah and I took Granny back to her house after dinner (with a quick stop at Lowe's which Noah enjoyed a lot).
Noah was very proud of MacKenzie, but he was also disappointed that he did not get one himself. Yet, he reacted by trying even harder to bowl well -- and he did! That was a great attitude for a four year old!
Granny Visits
After bowling, MacKenzie and I went to pick-up my Mom ("Granny" to the kids), and took her shopping. Afterwards, we all went home for dinner. It was Halloween taco night! :D
Noah and I took Granny back to her house after dinner (with a quick stop at Lowe's which Noah enjoyed a lot).
Friday, October 15, 2004
w.bloggar works great!
I just tried the bloggar software and it works superbly! It is hard to believe that it is free!
Tracey's mom has been with us for almost a week -- what a great lady she is! We went out with MacKenzie today (first we stopped at the bank to pay the mortgage, then we went to Big Lots, which is one of her favorite stores to visit when she is here). As usual, we had a great time and talked a lot about things. She is an excellent source of information and a great listener! Whenever she comes to visit she works so hard and helps so much that I am not sure she can really consider these trips a "vacation"!
I am going to be posting some retroactive logs to record things as accurately as possible. For now, I will say that our roof still leaks, despite our hard work this past weekend. On the positive side, leaking appears to be confined to one spot. Unfortunately, it was bad enough that the ceiling fell down in the kid's bathroom. We woke up to a mess! I am sure we will get it straightened out sooner or later.
Tracey's mom has been with us for almost a week -- what a great lady she is! We went out with MacKenzie today (first we stopped at the bank to pay the mortgage, then we went to Big Lots, which is one of her favorite stores to visit when she is here). As usual, we had a great time and talked a lot about things. She is an excellent source of information and a great listener! Whenever she comes to visit she works so hard and helps so much that I am not sure she can really consider these trips a "vacation"!
I am going to be posting some retroactive logs to record things as accurately as possible. For now, I will say that our roof still leaks, despite our hard work this past weekend. On the positive side, leaking appears to be confined to one spot. Unfortunately, it was bad enough that the ceiling fell down in the kid's bathroom. We woke up to a mess! I am sure we will get it straightened out sooner or later.
Posting again
It has been a long time (at least it seems that way) since my last post. So much has happened that I have not had a chance to post.
Today, I discovered what may help me do more posting: a program called w.bloggar. I am writing this post in the program and will try to upload it to blogger.com to see how things work.
Tracey is in California, north of San Diego. Her plans were to go to the beach (soak her feet in the Pacific Ocean, one of her life dreams) and hang out with her friends there. The Survivor Crop starts tomorrow at Noon!
OK, I will send this post to the website and see what happens. I will write more later.
Today, I discovered what may help me do more posting: a program called w.bloggar. I am writing this post in the program and will try to upload it to blogger.com to see how things work.
Tracey is in California, north of San Diego. Her plans were to go to the beach (soak her feet in the Pacific Ocean, one of her life dreams) and hang out with her friends there. The Survivor Crop starts tomorrow at Noon!
OK, I will send this post to the website and see what happens. I will write more later.
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Don't Like Rain
(Retroactive posting)
I never thought I would say this: I don't like rainy days anymore. Rainy days used to be nice -- I used to love the relaxing music of rain drops hiting the windows and roof.
But now I almost hate rain -- the damage to our house continues despite our best efforts. It rained yesterday and we experienced serious leaks in the kids bathroom -- enough to bring down the ceiling. Worst of all, a new and large leak showed up in the kids' bedroom, all around the ceiling fan! I am not sure if this will jeopardize the safety of that light/fan -- we'll keep an eye on it for now.
We just can't seem to catch a break!
I never thought I would say this: I don't like rainy days anymore. Rainy days used to be nice -- I used to love the relaxing music of rain drops hiting the windows and roof.
But now I almost hate rain -- the damage to our house continues despite our best efforts. It rained yesterday and we experienced serious leaks in the kids bathroom -- enough to bring down the ceiling. Worst of all, a new and large leak showed up in the kids' bedroom, all around the ceiling fan! I am not sure if this will jeopardize the safety of that light/fan -- we'll keep an eye on it for now.
We just can't seem to catch a break!
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Washer down
Wonderful news (NOT!): our washer is no longer rinsing clothes properly or spinning them dry. Therefore, we have to squeeze the water out of everything by hand!
To make matters worse, the kids have been wetting their beds at night (this is night number two) despite our best efforts. I suspect this has to do with Tracey being gone to California. So washing sheets has become a daily (and painful) routine.
[This is a retroactive posting]
To make matters worse, the kids have been wetting their beds at night (this is night number two) despite our best efforts. I suspect this has to do with Tracey being gone to California. So washing sheets has become a daily (and painful) routine.
[This is a retroactive posting]
Sunday, October 10, 2004
Boxing it up!
Dan, Shirley, Bob and Audra came back this morning to put the finishing touches on the roof (what I learned is called boxing). This will help tremendously with ventilation and keeping the roof area free of moisture. It is a lot of work for them and we cannot thank them enough for all their help!
As luck would have it, they ran short on some materials, so we will have the pleasure of a follow-up visit sometime in the next few days!
This weekend, amongst other things, was great for Noah and MacK because they had two playmates: Audra had her boys (7 and 4, names withheld on purpose) with her! Our kids were delighted to have other young ones to play with! Noah was rough with Audra's youngest, but they seemed to get along well. They spent a great deal of time in the backyard running around! MacKenzie enjoyed the company so much that she called them "my boys." ;D What a kid!
[This is a retroactive posting]
As luck would have it, they ran short on some materials, so we will have the pleasure of a follow-up visit sometime in the next few days!
This weekend, amongst other things, was great for Noah and MacK because they had two playmates: Audra had her boys (7 and 4, names withheld on purpose) with her! Our kids were delighted to have other young ones to play with! Noah was rough with Audra's youngest, but they seemed to get along well. They spent a great deal of time in the backyard running around! MacKenzie enjoyed the company so much that she called them "my boys." ;D What a kid!
[This is a retroactive posting]
Saturday, October 09, 2004
Roofing it up!
We roofed and roofed and roofed! And we had a great time doing it too! Right at 8:30 we began back on the roof and, except for meal breaks, we did not stop until almost 5 PM. But the roof is done! WOW!
Our friend Paul brought an air roofing nail gun that made a huge difference in our ability to make progress with this. Audra became the gun master and did a great job of getting hundreds of shingles nailed down! Wooo Hooo!
The morning was spent fixing wood areas on the rear part of the roof and shingling the front, West part. The rest of the day we handled installing shingles on the rear of the house.
Today's crew: Dan, Shirley, Bob, Audra, Terry, Paul, Terri, Tracey and I.
[This is a retroactive posting]
Our friend Paul brought an air roofing nail gun that made a huge difference in our ability to make progress with this. Audra became the gun master and did a great job of getting hundreds of shingles nailed down! Wooo Hooo!
The morning was spent fixing wood areas on the rear part of the roof and shingling the front, West part. The rest of the day we handled installing shingles on the rear of the house.
Today's crew: Dan, Shirley, Bob, Audra, Terry, Paul, Terri, Tracey and I.
[This is a retroactive posting]
Friday, October 08, 2004
Let's Roof!
Our dear friends arrived this morning with everything we need to fix our roof -- and we began working hard on it! From around 10 AM to past 5 PM we fixed the front, East portion of the roof. We only stripped parts of the roof where we could determine that we needed to replace the OSB wood. Otherwise, we simply put the new shingles over the old ones. Of course, this cut down on a lot of work and the trash we generated. Hopefully it will do the job for us!
Today's crew consisted of Dan, Shirley, Bob, Audra, Terry, Leora, Tracey and I.
[This is a retroactive posting]
Today's crew consisted of Dan, Shirley, Bob, Audra, Terry, Leora, Tracey and I.
[This is a retroactive posting]
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Chemo #5
Chemo #5 started today, and it was not a good start. Tracey felt very dizzy at one point during the session and she had to lay down (a first for her) in order to recover. The new medication can produce a serious allergic reaction with some patients, so they had to test it on Tracey first, then give her the full dose after they determined that she was OK with it. Our friend Shelley was kind enough to bring Tracey lunch (I was at work).
Today is the first day we have had to do Chemo while we are apart. My partner (Ben) is in training all week, so I am working the day shift. I dropped Tracey at the hospital at 9 AM and then picked her up after Chemo. Although she is doing OK with the nasuea, etc., the aching/pain is pretty bad.
[This is a retroactive posting]
Today is the first day we have had to do Chemo while we are apart. My partner (Ben) is in training all week, so I am working the day shift. I dropped Tracey at the hospital at 9 AM and then picked her up after Chemo. Although she is doing OK with the nasuea, etc., the aching/pain is pretty bad.
[This is a retroactive posting]
Friday, September 17, 2004
Chemo #3 -- Overview
Of all the chemo treatments thus far, Tracey has struggled the most with this one. We are getting close to Chemo #4 and she is still not feeling "semi-normal". I don't know exactly what is making this session harder than others, but it is disheartening to see my strong Tracey weakened so much. I certainly hope that the next Chemo will be better for her!
Pelham Visits
Our friend Pelham stopped by to have lunch with us today! That was such a great thing for her to do! She brought lunch for us and spent sometime with the family. Noah and MacK love Pelham!
Ivan's "Gift"
Pelham's visit was certainly much, much nicer than the one we received from Ivan. This morning, around 3 AM, we began experiencing very strong winds and rain. Our roof finally gave, and we began getting plenty of rain inside our house's front room (which Tracey and I use for an office). I spent sometime covering my desk and moving things around. Shortly after that I hear a large thump in the office. Sure enough … the ceiling had collapsed on my desk! Wonderful … just what we needed!
Roof Work
Tomorrow I will be getting up on the roof and putting tarps over the areas where we have the most damage. We are working with a group of friends to have our roof repaired this October. Hopefully the tarps will help until then!
It seems (in looking back through my previous entries) that I failed to mention that our friend Dan came to visit us two weeks ago (while Tracey and I were at her Chemo #3 session). He looked at the roof to estimate the supplies we would need. When I called him that afternoon to see what money we needed to put together, he informed us that someone will be paying for our shingles! He did not want to reveal who the benefactor is. We were speechless and very grateful for Dan's role in getting us this huge help!
So now we will need to work on getting rain gutters installed after the roof is done -- this will help with some of the other problems we are experiencing -- and replace some of the flooring that has rotted due to water damage (from the roof leaks). We are also looking at having to replace a great deal of our ceilings and insulation (that is mold infested). But we will take it one step at a time. We are hopeful that our Good Neighbor fund will come to our help with some of the expenses for these projects!
Thankful!
Despite all our trials and tribulations, we remain thankful that we still have so much! Looking at the damage caused in Florida and other states (and countries) by the hurricanes and tornadoes lately, we are humble and thankful that nothing like that has come our way! We are also hopeful that all the hurricanes and storms now developing will stay away from the USA! I think we have had enough excitement for one year!
Pelham Visits
Our friend Pelham stopped by to have lunch with us today! That was such a great thing for her to do! She brought lunch for us and spent sometime with the family. Noah and MacK love Pelham!
Ivan's "Gift"
Pelham's visit was certainly much, much nicer than the one we received from Ivan. This morning, around 3 AM, we began experiencing very strong winds and rain. Our roof finally gave, and we began getting plenty of rain inside our house's front room (which Tracey and I use for an office). I spent sometime covering my desk and moving things around. Shortly after that I hear a large thump in the office. Sure enough … the ceiling had collapsed on my desk! Wonderful … just what we needed!
Roof Work
Tomorrow I will be getting up on the roof and putting tarps over the areas where we have the most damage. We are working with a group of friends to have our roof repaired this October. Hopefully the tarps will help until then!
It seems (in looking back through my previous entries) that I failed to mention that our friend Dan came to visit us two weeks ago (while Tracey and I were at her Chemo #3 session). He looked at the roof to estimate the supplies we would need. When I called him that afternoon to see what money we needed to put together, he informed us that someone will be paying for our shingles! He did not want to reveal who the benefactor is. We were speechless and very grateful for Dan's role in getting us this huge help!
So now we will need to work on getting rain gutters installed after the roof is done -- this will help with some of the other problems we are experiencing -- and replace some of the flooring that has rotted due to water damage (from the roof leaks). We are also looking at having to replace a great deal of our ceilings and insulation (that is mold infested). But we will take it one step at a time. We are hopeful that our Good Neighbor fund will come to our help with some of the expenses for these projects!
Thankful!
Despite all our trials and tribulations, we remain thankful that we still have so much! Looking at the damage caused in Florida and other states (and countries) by the hurricanes and tornadoes lately, we are humble and thankful that nothing like that has come our way! We are also hopeful that all the hurricanes and storms now developing will stay away from the USA! I think we have had enough excitement for one year!
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Noah's Train Tracks
Noah surprised us this morning by showing us the train tracks he built from Lego pieces. He got the idea from the Lego magazine he receives regularly. He has already shown great ability to build things: he regularly constructs "Star Wars" ships, even if he does not have the official Lego parts to do those projects. I see an Engineering or Architect future for him. He has put together amazing cities (one even included a Stargate made from Lego parts).
Hummingbird Delight
I briefly stepped out on to our very weathered deck, taking the cat litter pan out to dry. I looked up and there was this beautiful hummingbird floating right in front of me -- brave little one he is! He then went from flower to flower, snacking at will, before coming back up to see me one more time. He then turned slowly and flew away. What a wonderful way to start the day! I had never been this close to a hummingbird before! :-)
Saturday, September 11, 2004
Chemo # 3 & Frances
I have not had a chance to blog this week -- it has been a permanent state of "busy".
Tracey received her third round of Chemo on Wednesday. Everything went fairly well. She was put on a different combination of medications and actually went through Wednesday and Thursday without major incidents. The meds are expensive (in the realm of $400 per pill -- fortunately we received a sample from the Infusion Center and our prescription plan limits our liability to $35 per prescription). Friday was a totally different thing -- Tracey woke up seriously nauseated and had a very rough day. Today (Saturday) has not been much better. We are hoping tomorrow will be better!
Frances
Hurricane/Tropical Storm Frances caused a great deal of "excitement" in our area. We had record number of tornadoes for our state, including three or four all around our house. This week was horrible for sleeping! The weather radio kept going off constantly between Monday morning and Thursday morning. Of course, we count our blessings when we hear all the struggles residents of Florida and the Caribbean are enduring!
Toastmaster's
Yesterday, the Toastmaster's club I am a member (and currently its President) was formerly inducted -- we learned that we are now the largest TM club in South Carolina! It is a GREAT learning experience and something I wish everyone would try. I have my second speech scheduled for this coming Tuesday.
Saturday Bowling
This morning's bowling session was a lot of fun -- for both the kids and I. Noah bowled a 50 and 52, and MacKenzie a 60 and 50. Not too bad for their first "official" games! I wish I could show you MacKenzie's bowling style -- it is so funny! I think I was a lot better at coaching them today -- but I had to have an iron fist to keep them under control. It is great to see them interact with others -- they are very sociable and they love babies! There was a 1+ year little baby in the lane next to us and both Noah and MacKenzie were so excited to interact with her!
Jenny
Today is Jenny's birthday -- we had a fun telephone talk with her! She loved the gifts we sent. We found she was going out to dinner and celebrate her 14th!
Tracey received her third round of Chemo on Wednesday. Everything went fairly well. She was put on a different combination of medications and actually went through Wednesday and Thursday without major incidents. The meds are expensive (in the realm of $400 per pill -- fortunately we received a sample from the Infusion Center and our prescription plan limits our liability to $35 per prescription). Friday was a totally different thing -- Tracey woke up seriously nauseated and had a very rough day. Today (Saturday) has not been much better. We are hoping tomorrow will be better!
Frances
Hurricane/Tropical Storm Frances caused a great deal of "excitement" in our area. We had record number of tornadoes for our state, including three or four all around our house. This week was horrible for sleeping! The weather radio kept going off constantly between Monday morning and Thursday morning. Of course, we count our blessings when we hear all the struggles residents of Florida and the Caribbean are enduring!
Toastmaster's
Yesterday, the Toastmaster's club I am a member (and currently its President) was formerly inducted -- we learned that we are now the largest TM club in South Carolina! It is a GREAT learning experience and something I wish everyone would try. I have my second speech scheduled for this coming Tuesday.
Saturday Bowling
This morning's bowling session was a lot of fun -- for both the kids and I. Noah bowled a 50 and 52, and MacKenzie a 60 and 50. Not too bad for their first "official" games! I wish I could show you MacKenzie's bowling style -- it is so funny! I think I was a lot better at coaching them today -- but I had to have an iron fist to keep them under control. It is great to see them interact with others -- they are very sociable and they love babies! There was a 1+ year little baby in the lane next to us and both Noah and MacKenzie were so excited to interact with her!
Jenny
Today is Jenny's birthday -- we had a fun telephone talk with her! She loved the gifts we sent. We found she was going out to dinner and celebrate her 14th!
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
Frances
Just last night, as Tracey and I were preparing for her third round of Chemo, I turned to her and told her that we had lucked out with Frances, as the weather maps looked like the major portion of the storm had missed us! Boy, was I wrong! I forgot that Frances had positioned itself so that we would be on the wrong side of the storm. Today, we got pounded by heavy rains in the morning and a gazillion tornado watches and warnings. We, thus far, have been very fortunate that nothing has really happened to our area. Others near us have not been so lucky!
This morning we started out driving to the hospital. We were actually very early, in anticipation of the rain delays one expects. Within 30 seconds of driving we turned back because the visibility was so bad that we felt unsafe on the road. Tracey called the Oncology office and postponed her treatment until tomorrow. We spent the rest of the day with the kids, dealing with the minor inconvenience of a few interruptions to our electrical power, and hoping everyone around us was safe and sound. We saw some reports on TV that showed serious damage in Columbia (35 miles south of us) and Atlanta (where I go to work sometimes).
More than twice I started working on something and got stopped by power outages — so I stopped and bummed the rest of the day off. Tracey was very concerned for our family's safety, so I called in to the office and told my partner I was staying home with them.
Thoughts On Sleep
I have recently noticed that the more I sleep, the less rested I am and the more things I need to handle in a state of urgency. I am seriously considering either boycotting sleep altogether or at least cutting down on such considerably. After much consideration I have decided to sleep on the subject and decide on something tomorrow.
Thoughts On Email
For sometime now I have grown frustrated with email — as I am sure most everyone else is — due to spam. My mailbox is ridiculous! Everyday I receive 120-130 emails, and only about ten are from people or organizations I have a legitimate relationship with. It used to be that I looked forward to checking my email — now it is a real chore! I am sure one day we will be able to find the spammers and punish them according to the severity of their crimes: corporal punishment at the town square would be a good starting point!
This morning we started out driving to the hospital. We were actually very early, in anticipation of the rain delays one expects. Within 30 seconds of driving we turned back because the visibility was so bad that we felt unsafe on the road. Tracey called the Oncology office and postponed her treatment until tomorrow. We spent the rest of the day with the kids, dealing with the minor inconvenience of a few interruptions to our electrical power, and hoping everyone around us was safe and sound. We saw some reports on TV that showed serious damage in Columbia (35 miles south of us) and Atlanta (where I go to work sometimes).
More than twice I started working on something and got stopped by power outages — so I stopped and bummed the rest of the day off. Tracey was very concerned for our family's safety, so I called in to the office and told my partner I was staying home with them.
Thoughts On Sleep
I have recently noticed that the more I sleep, the less rested I am and the more things I need to handle in a state of urgency. I am seriously considering either boycotting sleep altogether or at least cutting down on such considerably. After much consideration I have decided to sleep on the subject and decide on something tomorrow.
Thoughts On Email
For sometime now I have grown frustrated with email — as I am sure most everyone else is — due to spam. My mailbox is ridiculous! Everyday I receive 120-130 emails, and only about ten are from people or organizations I have a legitimate relationship with. It used to be that I looked forward to checking my email — now it is a real chore! I am sure one day we will be able to find the spammers and punish them according to the severity of their crimes: corporal punishment at the town square would be a good starting point!
Sunday, August 29, 2004
A walk in the rain
Tracey is still having a rough time (but better than previous days). However, she spent a good deal of today sleeping. For that matter, so did I. My energy was at -10 this morning (accompanied by a low-level headache at the base of my skull). I slept until 3 PM, then played with MacK a little before dinner time. After dinner, the kids and I took a walk in the light rain -- and we had a great time! They could not believe that we were actually going out in the rain -- with no raincoats, umbrella or even regular shows (they wore sandals). It was not a long walk, but they had a lot of fun and it did us all a lot of good to get out of the house for a few minutes.
After the kids went to bed, Tracey came into the living room with her electric shaver at hand. She asked met o shave the rest of her hair off so that she doe not have to deal with small hairs everywhere. Now, let me tell you: I have an even greater respect for barbers! Shaving someone's head is HARD. It took a very long time to get it all shaved. As hard as it was trying to remove the hair, it was even harder emotionally considering all that Tracey is going through.
The lack of hair has brought yet another uncomfortable experience for Tracey: constant shivers! That has to be right up there with some sort of torture! Not even the scarf or buffs protect her from getting shivers. I hope this is something that will pass soon!
After the kids went to bed, Tracey came into the living room with her electric shaver at hand. She asked met o shave the rest of her hair off so that she doe not have to deal with small hairs everywhere. Now, let me tell you: I have an even greater respect for barbers! Shaving someone's head is HARD. It took a very long time to get it all shaved. As hard as it was trying to remove the hair, it was even harder emotionally considering all that Tracey is going through.
The lack of hair has brought yet another uncomfortable experience for Tracey: constant shivers! That has to be right up there with some sort of torture! Not even the scarf or buffs protect her from getting shivers. I hope this is something that will pass soon!
Saturday, August 28, 2004
Kids bowling and more
Let's start with Tracey: not much progress. She is still experiencing significant nausea and feeling like she has the flu (this is a known side-effect of the medication she is given after Chemo for producing bone marrow). She did feel a bit better at times, so there is hope that tomorrow will be a better day.
Today was the sign-up session for the kids bowling season — I now have my first hint of what is to come in the years ahead! I suspect Tracey and I will be very busy driving the kids to an endless number of activities! :-)
Both Noah and MacK were extremely friendly, going to everyone and introducing themselves freely. Noah was a little too friendly (as has been his habit so far) and actually interfered with another kid's bowling!
I also discovered that my patience is not as plentiful as I thought. Noah and MacK drove me nuts with their bowling. They started well enough — they rolled their first ball and then ran to the rack to get more balls! I think they need to learn some rules! After I showed them that their ball would be returned to them, they rolled a few more — not always on the lane they were supposed to! Noah actually tried to put his fingers in the holes, but has not concept of how to roll the ball. Sometimes the ball would go far, sometimes the ball would go straight up and down, landing on one spot and refusing to roll further, as if embarrased of being misused in such fashion!
Now, let me tell you that MacK has a style of her own in terms of bowling — she gracefully managed to combine ballet, gymnastics and bowling all into one. She brings her ball to the approach almost in a ballet style movement, turning and jumping as if listening to a classical piece. Once at the approach, she prepares herself for the ball delivery by twisting her body in positions that are almost impossible to describe. One that repeated itself involves holding the ball with one hand, raising the opposite leg towards the ceiling, twisting around the ball to end in a sitting position facing the bowling alley, then smoothly pushing the ball and getting 8 pins. I may just have to try her technique someday!
Interestingly, I was asked to coach the PeeWee group for the league this year. If I had hair, it would be gone before long.
After we got home the kids had lunch, and Noah and I left to see our friends Bill and Jerry. On the way to their house Noah asked me:
Noah: Dad, is there a Wendy's at Mr. Bill's?
Me: I don't think so, why?
Noah: They have burgers there, you know?
Me: Yes, I know.
Noah: I need a burger soon!
Me: Oh really? Maybe Mr. Bill will have some fruit he can share with us, OK?
Noah: OK
We visited with our friends (Noah had several cookies, a glass of milk, and soda) and then headed home several hours later. As we left their house Noah asked:
Noah: Is there a Burger King around here?
Me: No, I don't think there is one here.
Noah: I want a burger, you know?
Me: We'll have dinner when we get home.
Then we stopped at the ATM.
Noah: Do they sell burgers here?
Me: No, I am just getting some cash from the bank.
Noah: So that we can get a burger at Burger King?
Me: No, so that I can have cash in my wallet.
Noah: What about a burger?
Me (smiling): We'll have dinner when we get home.
Then Noah fell asleep until we got home.
Today was the sign-up session for the kids bowling season — I now have my first hint of what is to come in the years ahead! I suspect Tracey and I will be very busy driving the kids to an endless number of activities! :-)
Both Noah and MacK were extremely friendly, going to everyone and introducing themselves freely. Noah was a little too friendly (as has been his habit so far) and actually interfered with another kid's bowling!
I also discovered that my patience is not as plentiful as I thought. Noah and MacK drove me nuts with their bowling. They started well enough — they rolled their first ball and then ran to the rack to get more balls! I think they need to learn some rules! After I showed them that their ball would be returned to them, they rolled a few more — not always on the lane they were supposed to! Noah actually tried to put his fingers in the holes, but has not concept of how to roll the ball. Sometimes the ball would go far, sometimes the ball would go straight up and down, landing on one spot and refusing to roll further, as if embarrased of being misused in such fashion!
Now, let me tell you that MacK has a style of her own in terms of bowling — she gracefully managed to combine ballet, gymnastics and bowling all into one. She brings her ball to the approach almost in a ballet style movement, turning and jumping as if listening to a classical piece. Once at the approach, she prepares herself for the ball delivery by twisting her body in positions that are almost impossible to describe. One that repeated itself involves holding the ball with one hand, raising the opposite leg towards the ceiling, twisting around the ball to end in a sitting position facing the bowling alley, then smoothly pushing the ball and getting 8 pins. I may just have to try her technique someday!
Interestingly, I was asked to coach the PeeWee group for the league this year. If I had hair, it would be gone before long.
After we got home the kids had lunch, and Noah and I left to see our friends Bill and Jerry. On the way to their house Noah asked me:
Noah: Dad, is there a Wendy's at Mr. Bill's?
Me: I don't think so, why?
Noah: They have burgers there, you know?
Me: Yes, I know.
Noah: I need a burger soon!
Me: Oh really? Maybe Mr. Bill will have some fruit he can share with us, OK?
Noah: OK
We visited with our friends (Noah had several cookies, a glass of milk, and soda) and then headed home several hours later. As we left their house Noah asked:
Noah: Is there a Burger King around here?
Me: No, I don't think there is one here.
Noah: I want a burger, you know?
Me: We'll have dinner when we get home.
Then we stopped at the ATM.
Noah: Do they sell burgers here?
Me: No, I am just getting some cash from the bank.
Noah: So that we can get a burger at Burger King?
Me: No, so that I can have cash in my wallet.
Noah: What about a burger?
Me (smiling): We'll have dinner when we get home.
Then Noah fell asleep until we got home.
Friday, August 27, 2004
Kicked butt at work
I am actually writing this a few days later (on Sunday). Friday went by slowly, very slowly -- Tracey struggled all day with nausea and feeling ill (flu-like symptoms). I spent some time with the kids, but mostly slept in the afternoon. I have felt overwhelmed by everything that is going on, mostly the inability to help Tracey feel better, and that has drained me of much energy.
On the good side, I really had a great night at work (although it did not look very good there for a few moments). I was very happy that I was able to produce as much work as I did. A small victory, perhaps, but a victory nonetheless!
On the good side, I really had a great night at work (although it did not look very good there for a few moments). I was very happy that I was able to produce as much work as I did. A small victory, perhaps, but a victory nonetheless!
Thursday, August 26, 2004
Dry, dry, dry
We have been celebrating around the house, as Noah has been pull-up free at night for a week! We are so proud of him! :-)
This morning, around 2 AM, he walked into our room and crawled in bed with me -- he just wanted to sleep in our bed. Of course, we quickly told him that was not going to work and I walked him back to his bedroom.
Around 7 AM I woke up to the sound of a Nintendo game -- both Noah and MacKenzie were sitting in front of the small TV we have setup for their game, playing happily (and quietly, which is rare). Those kids are growing up fast!
MacK and I went to the store to get Tracey's new medication and a few other things. We had a nice time together -- until the little bugger decided to trick me. We were heading back to the house and she was "reading" her magazine when she appeared to have fallen asleep. She would not respond to my voice or lightly touching her leg. When I tugged her leg she smiled and said: "Leave me alone." She was awake the whole time! The only thing that kind of gave her up is that she was holding onto the magazine with all her might! She is going to win some sort of acting award; mark my words on that!
Tracey still did not have a good day today -- this evening she was still feeling nausated. Even the new "super-duper" drug did not help her (at least not right away). What a terrible disease cancer is!
This morning, around 2 AM, he walked into our room and crawled in bed with me -- he just wanted to sleep in our bed. Of course, we quickly told him that was not going to work and I walked him back to his bedroom.
Around 7 AM I woke up to the sound of a Nintendo game -- both Noah and MacKenzie were sitting in front of the small TV we have setup for their game, playing happily (and quietly, which is rare). Those kids are growing up fast!
MacK and I went to the store to get Tracey's new medication and a few other things. We had a nice time together -- until the little bugger decided to trick me. We were heading back to the house and she was "reading" her magazine when she appeared to have fallen asleep. She would not respond to my voice or lightly touching her leg. When I tugged her leg she smiled and said: "Leave me alone." She was awake the whole time! The only thing that kind of gave her up is that she was holding onto the magazine with all her might! She is going to win some sort of acting award; mark my words on that!
Tracey still did not have a good day today -- this evening she was still feeling nausated. Even the new "super-duper" drug did not help her (at least not right away). What a terrible disease cancer is!
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Chemo #2 - Day 2
We headed back to Lexington Medical Center at 8 AM for Tracey's follow-up. She spent all morning there. The nausea was still a big part of her day, so they gave us a new medication. Of course, being that it is not a common drug, I was nto able to get it filled yesterday. Our pharmacist will have ready by tomorrow morning at 10:30 AM. When I left Tracey this afternoon she was in bed and feeling sick. She just keeps repeating: "This sucks."
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Chemo #2 -- six to go
At 7 AM we got up to go to Chemo -- talk about two sleepy people! :-)
Everything seemed to go well for Tracey -- I was lucky and took advantage of one of the "private" rooms in the Chemo area and crashed for three hours. Tracey had a visit from Heather and made new friends with several chemo patients and their families.
We met a beautiful lady, now 80, who was recently diagnosed with breast cancer. Her mastectomy did not go very well, and she had to wait for her complications to clear up before she could start chemo. She was there with her daughter (also a breast cancer survivor) and her husband of 62 years! He is also a cancer survivor!
I spoke with Tracey around 9 PM and she got sick to her stomach again -- darn it! It did take longer this time, but still happened. In the words of a famous philosopher: THIS SUCKS! :-(
It is almost 1 AM and I am very tired -- and still at work! :-| Not much longer before I head home, so I will close for now.
Everything seemed to go well for Tracey -- I was lucky and took advantage of one of the "private" rooms in the Chemo area and crashed for three hours. Tracey had a visit from Heather and made new friends with several chemo patients and their families.
We met a beautiful lady, now 80, who was recently diagnosed with breast cancer. Her mastectomy did not go very well, and she had to wait for her complications to clear up before she could start chemo. She was there with her daughter (also a breast cancer survivor) and her husband of 62 years! He is also a cancer survivor!
I spoke with Tracey around 9 PM and she got sick to her stomach again -- darn it! It did take longer this time, but still happened. In the words of a famous philosopher: THIS SUCKS! :-(
It is almost 1 AM and I am very tired -- and still at work! :-| Not much longer before I head home, so I will close for now.
Falling
When I got home this morning (around 1:30 AM), Tracey was waiting for me. With sadness in her eyes she said: "It is falling." She rubbed her head and hair trickled on her keyboard. I was SO sad! I guess in the back of my mind I was hoping she would be one of the few that did not lose her hair. It was one of those moments when you wish you could do something to make your partner feel better and simply make reality disappear!
So we did the best next thing: we headed for the bathroom and trimmed her hair VERY short! It is now about 1/8" long.
It was almost 3 AM before we finally fell asleep -- we simply talked for awhile until we knew we better get some sleep (we had to be up by 7 AM in order to go to Chemo).
So we did the best next thing: we headed for the bathroom and trimmed her hair VERY short! It is now about 1/8" long.
It was almost 3 AM before we finally fell asleep -- we simply talked for awhile until we knew we better get some sleep (we had to be up by 7 AM in order to go to Chemo).
Monday, August 23, 2004
Olympic-size Censorship
As if my previous information about the Olympics was not bad enough, I have learned that the censorship imposed at the Olympic games goes much further! According to CNN, athletes, coaches and support staff are forbidden from blogging their experience. In my humble opinion, the IOC has grown into a fascist organization and has lost sight of its real goals. Are the Olympics not a venue for athletes to compete for the right to be the "best" in the world? Or are the games perhaps just another reality show, more concerned with ratings and revenues than the spirit of sportsmanship?
My boycott decision has been vindicated and reinforced. The Greeks from ancient times must be terribly sadden by the corruption and prostitution of the Olympic games.
My boycott decision has been vindicated and reinforced. The Greeks from ancient times must be terribly sadden by the corruption and prostitution of the Olympic games.
In Daddy's Arms
Last night MacKenzie fell asleep in my arms, for the first time in over a year! She must have been very tired or not feeling very well. We were watching TV and she nestled on my chest (actually crawled under the blanket first) and fell asleep within seconds. What a sweet moment!
Sunday, August 22, 2004
Saturday Happenings
Well, what started as a relatively uneventful Saturday turned out ot be a fairly busy evening.
But, I will start by getting on my soap box and expressing my opinion on something I read today:
Olympic Boycott
I am boycotting the Olympic games as long as they condone censorship of this kind:
The source of this information is the weekly This Is True ezine. I encourage anyone to check this publication and to subscribe to either the free or premium versions!
As you can imagine, I was livid when I read this information. It is absolutely absurd to prohibit an spectator from wearing an item that has a logo they do not like or drink a soda that is not from an official sponsor.
Tracey disagrees with me on this one.
{This is me getting off my soap box}
Short Evening Out for the "Boys"
I needed to run some errands (go see my Mom and then help our friends Bill and Jerry with a computer problem) that would take me to the opposite side of town. I thought it would be nice to take Noah with me, sort of a boys evening out. Once we started driving he began acting as he was very tired (not unusual for him at that time of the evening). I thought he would nap a little on the way to my Mom's and would be alright for the rest of the evening. When we got there he needed to use the bathroom -- and when he came out he was crying and asking to go home. So we started for home and then he said he was OK and wanted to go to Mr. Bill and Ms. Jerry's -- so I started driving toward our friends' house. Noah then changed his mind, telling me that he was tired and wanted his bed. I called Tracey to let her know and asked her to call our friends. I changed courses again and headed toward home. A few minutes later, just as we began driving on a very busy interstate, Noah got sick to his stomach. I finally was able to pull to the side and helped him get out of the car, got him undressed (he got to wear my shirt for cover), and headed home. The drive home was unsettling because I was worried about him, but he seemed OK (tired from vomiting, but OK otherwise). Once we got home he was given a bath and went to bed. I proceeded to clean the car, car seats, and clothes. Ah! Got to love being a parent! I would not trade my kids! It was past 10 PM by the time I finished with cleaning and stuff. Noah woke up this morning feeling fine, cheerful and playful as usual!
But, I will start by getting on my soap box and expressing my opinion on something I read today:
Olympic Boycott
I am boycotting the Olympic games as long as they condone censorship of this kind:
The Olympics are underway in Athens, Greece, but arriving spectators are finding they have to follow as many rules as the athletes. No carrying bombs, guns or knives. No oversized banners, umbrellas or excess pocket change. No Pepsi, unless the label is removed, since Coke is an official sponsor. And there are rules against wearing clothing "bearing the insignia of competitors of the sponsors." The so-called "clean venue policy" rules "protect official sponsors who have paid millions to make the Olympics happen," said an Olympic spokesman. (London Times, AFP) ...A policy that in the future will be known as "The Olympic Spirit".
The source of this information is the weekly This Is True ezine. I encourage anyone to check this publication and to subscribe to either the free or premium versions!
As you can imagine, I was livid when I read this information. It is absolutely absurd to prohibit an spectator from wearing an item that has a logo they do not like or drink a soda that is not from an official sponsor.
Tracey disagrees with me on this one.
{This is me getting off my soap box}
Short Evening Out for the "Boys"
I needed to run some errands (go see my Mom and then help our friends Bill and Jerry with a computer problem) that would take me to the opposite side of town. I thought it would be nice to take Noah with me, sort of a boys evening out. Once we started driving he began acting as he was very tired (not unusual for him at that time of the evening). I thought he would nap a little on the way to my Mom's and would be alright for the rest of the evening. When we got there he needed to use the bathroom -- and when he came out he was crying and asking to go home. So we started for home and then he said he was OK and wanted to go to Mr. Bill and Ms. Jerry's -- so I started driving toward our friends' house. Noah then changed his mind, telling me that he was tired and wanted his bed. I called Tracey to let her know and asked her to call our friends. I changed courses again and headed toward home. A few minutes later, just as we began driving on a very busy interstate, Noah got sick to his stomach. I finally was able to pull to the side and helped him get out of the car, got him undressed (he got to wear my shirt for cover), and headed home. The drive home was unsettling because I was worried about him, but he seemed OK (tired from vomiting, but OK otherwise). Once we got home he was given a bath and went to bed. I proceeded to clean the car, car seats, and clothes. Ah! Got to love being a parent! I would not trade my kids! It was past 10 PM by the time I finished with cleaning and stuff. Noah woke up this morning feeling fine, cheerful and playful as usual!
Thursday, August 19, 2004
We can learn from Baron
Baron is our 8 year old black Lab dog. When he first came to us about three years ago he was a huge dog -- about 120 pounds of pure love! He then began to lose his hair big time and he was very lethargic. We took him to the Vet and discovered his thyroid was not working well. So we got him on medication (very inexpensive, thankfully) that turned him into a beautiful, playful, happy dog again almost overnight! While he was feeling "down" before he was diagnosed, he never once "cried" or complained about his condition. He struggled through it and did the best he could.
A few months ago he began to limp from his left rear leg. We suspect, as does the Vet, that he has a mild case of hip dysplacia. Baron's limping has progressively worsen in the last few weeks. Yet, he has never yelped or complained. He greets us with as much love as he always has!
We just found out that we can give Baron aspirin to help with his pain, and there is evidence that a fairly high dose of vitamin C (specifically, Ester-C) can stop or reverse some of the joint damage he is experiencing. So we will try that to help him.
I have learned much from watching Baron's behavior and attitude in the last few weeks. He has shown me great valor and pride and strength, never once looking for pitty or sympathy for his obvious discomfort.
A few months ago he began to limp from his left rear leg. We suspect, as does the Vet, that he has a mild case of hip dysplacia. Baron's limping has progressively worsen in the last few weeks. Yet, he has never yelped or complained. He greets us with as much love as he always has!
We just found out that we can give Baron aspirin to help with his pain, and there is evidence that a fairly high dose of vitamin C (specifically, Ester-C) can stop or reverse some of the joint damage he is experiencing. So we will try that to help him.
I have learned much from watching Baron's behavior and attitude in the last few weeks. He has shown me great valor and pride and strength, never once looking for pitty or sympathy for his obvious discomfort.
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
It is gone!
As you can see, I am running a bit behind in updating my log -- it has been a busy few days!
Gone!
Monday night we had a "hair trimming" party to, as you can imagine, trim Tracey's hair down in preparation to the inevitable. We decided to include the kids in the experience. They had a blast! MacKenzie kept yelling: do it, do it, cut it! Noah giggled and laughed throughout the whole thing. Both of them kept running around the chair picking up hair and putting it in the trash can. I think it was a great idea to include them in this step!
I began by trimming Tracey's hair a little to give her a semi-mohawk look. Just as I began to trim she said: "I will hate you for ever for this!" I hope she was kidding! :-)
Kayla also participated in the cutting experience, trimming most of Tracey's top. Once we were done, Tracey had a nice, GI Jane haircut! We took pictures of the whole process (but they did not come out very well). She did try her wig and Survivor buff and was happy with how everything looked and felt on her. On Tuesday she went out (wearing her wig) to Wal-Mart and to pay our electrical bill. Nobody could really tell that she was wearing a wig -- that made her very happy!
In Training
This week (from Monday through Thursday) , I have been in a Security+ training course. Fortunately, I am able to remote control into my work computer from the Midlands Tech classroom and do some other work too!
Chemo Effects
Tracey has been experiencing additional symptoms from Chemo. Not only has she been tired and nauseated, but she is also feeling her mouth tissue begin to change. We were warned that mouth sores were a definite possibility with Chemo. All in all, however, she is doing well. Even the nausea has diminished substantially.
Tomorrow, Tracey will go (by herself) to Lexington Medical to get her blood check to make sure everything is OK for next week's Chemo session.
Gone!
Monday night we had a "hair trimming" party to, as you can imagine, trim Tracey's hair down in preparation to the inevitable. We decided to include the kids in the experience. They had a blast! MacKenzie kept yelling: do it, do it, cut it! Noah giggled and laughed throughout the whole thing. Both of them kept running around the chair picking up hair and putting it in the trash can. I think it was a great idea to include them in this step!
I began by trimming Tracey's hair a little to give her a semi-mohawk look. Just as I began to trim she said: "I will hate you for ever for this!" I hope she was kidding! :-)
Kayla also participated in the cutting experience, trimming most of Tracey's top. Once we were done, Tracey had a nice, GI Jane haircut! We took pictures of the whole process (but they did not come out very well). She did try her wig and Survivor buff and was happy with how everything looked and felt on her. On Tuesday she went out (wearing her wig) to Wal-Mart and to pay our electrical bill. Nobody could really tell that she was wearing a wig -- that made her very happy!
In Training
This week (from Monday through Thursday) , I have been in a Security+ training course. Fortunately, I am able to remote control into my work computer from the Midlands Tech classroom and do some other work too!
Chemo Effects
Tracey has been experiencing additional symptoms from Chemo. Not only has she been tired and nauseated, but she is also feeling her mouth tissue begin to change. We were warned that mouth sores were a definite possibility with Chemo. All in all, however, she is doing well. Even the nausea has diminished substantially.
Tomorrow, Tracey will go (by herself) to Lexington Medical to get her blood check to make sure everything is OK for next week's Chemo session.
Thursday, August 12, 2004
More hope ahead!
Today is another good day — and the good news keep rolling.
We spent most of the morning at Lexington Medical Park during a visit with her gynecologist (Dr. Gallery). Other than being a bit frustrated with having to answer 18 billion questions about her medial history (yet again -- didn't this office have the records from last year?) everything went well. Just to make sure I am clear: Tracey was not frustrated with all the questions (surprise, surprise!) -- but I was!
On the way home we heard a warning on the radio that a tornado had touched down a few miles from our home. Darn! That was TOO close for comfort! I am not sure what exact damage it caused, but we heard it touched down near a nursing home and may have destroyed a restaurant.
After I got to work I received a call from the Good Neighbor Fund -- the paperwork is going in requesting help for our roof project! That is fantastic news for us. Once we replace the roof we can really begin to make our home safer for the kids! :D
Tracey has had a very good day, overall -- and that makes my day a SUPER day! Let's hope for more of these!
We spent most of the morning at Lexington Medical Park during a visit with her gynecologist (Dr. Gallery). Other than being a bit frustrated with having to answer 18 billion questions about her medial history (yet again -- didn't this office have the records from last year?) everything went well. Just to make sure I am clear: Tracey was not frustrated with all the questions (surprise, surprise!) -- but I was!
On the way home we heard a warning on the radio that a tornado had touched down a few miles from our home. Darn! That was TOO close for comfort! I am not sure what exact damage it caused, but we heard it touched down near a nursing home and may have destroyed a restaurant.
After I got to work I received a call from the Good Neighbor Fund -- the paperwork is going in requesting help for our roof project! That is fantastic news for us. Once we replace the roof we can really begin to make our home safer for the kids! :D
Tracey has had a very good day, overall -- and that makes my day a SUPER day! Let's hope for more of these!
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
A better day!
Today was a far better day than yesterday! We still spent most of the day at the hospital doing the follow-up session, but Tracey was given a different medication to combat nausea that seems to have worked. She woke up still feeling a little shaky but as of 6 PM she was doing quite well and had managed to eat without nausea.
The new medication will block all sensors for 72 hours, and the staff also gave us a prescription for a steroid that will help this other medication. Ah! The wonderful world of medicine!
Last night one of our friends offered to help us fix our roof if we can get the materials together. I was also told today that we may have some help from a special fund that the company I work for has [of course, there are no guarantees that we will be selected for assistance]. Regardless, Tracey and I have set our mind that we need a new roof by this fall if we are to continue living in that house under any resemblance of normalcy. After we fix the roof (not a small project in itself) we still need to fix floors, ceilings, etc. We will take it one step at a time until it is all finished. Hopefully we will not be washed away by the two tropical storms/hurricanes (Bonnie and Charly) heading our way!
The new medication will block all sensors for 72 hours, and the staff also gave us a prescription for a steroid that will help this other medication. Ah! The wonderful world of medicine!
Last night one of our friends offered to help us fix our roof if we can get the materials together. I was also told today that we may have some help from a special fund that the company I work for has [of course, there are no guarantees that we will be selected for assistance]. Regardless, Tracey and I have set our mind that we need a new roof by this fall if we are to continue living in that house under any resemblance of normalcy. After we fix the roof (not a small project in itself) we still need to fix floors, ceilings, etc. We will take it one step at a time until it is all finished. Hopefully we will not be washed away by the two tropical storms/hurricanes (Bonnie and Charly) heading our way!
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
One down, seven to go
Tracey and I spent most of today at the hospital with her first session of chemotherapy. It is a slow, long process designed to prepare her for the best use of the medications (or the poisons, as she calls them) so that they can work for the purpose intended.
She just called to tell me that she is feeling sick and needs me home. I will continue writing later.
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It is later now and my poor honey is trying to rest. It has not been an easy evening at all. Her stomach was very unsettled all afternoon and evening, and the medications did little to help. Also, the tension headache and lack of sleep did not help. We had to call the doctor because she actually vomited twice and that was not supposed to happen.
We learned today that the medications they are using on her the first four sessions are the ones that can damage her heart (not the second chemical, as I had previously thought).
Tracey has an appointment Friday to get a wig fitted.
Kelley from LMC stopped by and gave Tracey encouragement and support, and also took the time to get a prescription for Tracey -- what a great person she is! We really do not know what we would have done without her! I do know it would have been a much more difficult process for us. Kelley has been like a lighthouse in a violent storm -- she always brings us home safely! Thank you, Kelley!
My dear friend Shelley stopped by the hospital to meet with me and share some of the thoughtful items she put together for Tracey and a gift from my work team. Thank you Shelley and my friends at work!
Well, it is now past midnight and we need to be at the hospital again at 9 AM. I hope Tracey will have a good night's rest and feel much better soon!
She just called to tell me that she is feeling sick and needs me home. I will continue writing later.
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It is later now and my poor honey is trying to rest. It has not been an easy evening at all. Her stomach was very unsettled all afternoon and evening, and the medications did little to help. Also, the tension headache and lack of sleep did not help. We had to call the doctor because she actually vomited twice and that was not supposed to happen.
We learned today that the medications they are using on her the first four sessions are the ones that can damage her heart (not the second chemical, as I had previously thought).
Tracey has an appointment Friday to get a wig fitted.
Kelley from LMC stopped by and gave Tracey encouragement and support, and also took the time to get a prescription for Tracey -- what a great person she is! We really do not know what we would have done without her! I do know it would have been a much more difficult process for us. Kelley has been like a lighthouse in a violent storm -- she always brings us home safely! Thank you, Kelley!
My dear friend Shelley stopped by the hospital to meet with me and share some of the thoughtful items she put together for Tracey and a gift from my work team. Thank you Shelley and my friends at work!
Well, it is now past midnight and we need to be at the hospital again at 9 AM. I hope Tracey will have a good night's rest and feel much better soon!
Monday, August 09, 2004
Being scared
The thing that has affected me the most about Tracey's fight with cancer is her worrying about chemotherapy. Tracey and I have been through a lot together in the last six years, and this is the first time that I have seen her seriously worried about something we are facing. Granted, dealing with cancer is not something you can take lightly -- after all, it usually is a life and dead situation! Her worrying, however, scares me -- she has such keen sense of premonition, of predicting things, that I hope what she is feeling is no more than normal jitters about an "unknown" situation.
Tomorrow will definitely be an indicator of what we can expect for the next four months. Tracey is scheduled to have eight chemotherapy sessions, one every other week. The first four sessions will be one set of drugs, and the second four sessions a different chemical. I hope all goes well and the effects on her are minimal and she can recover fully so that we can begin putting this behind us (as much as you can put cancer behind you). Of course, we know that from now on she will have to undergo regular exams to ensure that the disease is still in remission (you never quite get rid of cancer, it seems).
Another part that would scare anyone is hearing them tell you that the person you have known thus far will not be there anymore. Tracey told me Saturday:
Tomorrow will definitely be an indicator of what we can expect for the next four months. Tracey is scheduled to have eight chemotherapy sessions, one every other week. The first four sessions will be one set of drugs, and the second four sessions a different chemical. I hope all goes well and the effects on her are minimal and she can recover fully so that we can begin putting this behind us (as much as you can put cancer behind you). Of course, we know that from now on she will have to undergo regular exams to ensure that the disease is still in remission (you never quite get rid of cancer, it seems).
Another part that would scare anyone is hearing them tell you that the person you have known thus far will not be there anymore. Tracey told me Saturday:
“The Tracey you have known, that our friends and family have known, will no longer exist starting next Tuesday.”
I have the feeling that perhaps the current Tracey [strong, optimistic, loving] may emerge into an even better Tracey [stronger, more determined, more appreciative] -- at least that is what my heart hopes for!
Day 1 -- finally blogging!
I had the idea of blogging for sometime, but never found the time to research what service to use. Tracey, my wife, signed up with blogger and that made it easier for me to start this.
One of the reasons why she started her blog (and why I now have joined this) is her fight against breast cancer. This has already been a difficult road for both of us and our family. My wife has lost both breasts and has gone through three surgeries. Tomorrow we start on the road of chemotherapy -- and we are both scared about what that will bring.
So let this blog serve as a record of this experience from my viewpoint. I will share what I see and feel, and also what I perceive others in our family are going through.
Since I am a "techie" in many respects, I will likely add here stuff that I find on the web that is either helpful or curious or interesting.
Please feel free to comment if you happen to come across this blog and want to leave a message.
Best wishes to all of you for a life full of happiness and health!
One of the reasons why she started her blog (and why I now have joined this) is her fight against breast cancer. This has already been a difficult road for both of us and our family. My wife has lost both breasts and has gone through three surgeries. Tomorrow we start on the road of chemotherapy -- and we are both scared about what that will bring.
So let this blog serve as a record of this experience from my viewpoint. I will share what I see and feel, and also what I perceive others in our family are going through.
Since I am a "techie" in many respects, I will likely add here stuff that I find on the web that is either helpful or curious or interesting.
Please feel free to comment if you happen to come across this blog and want to leave a message.
Best wishes to all of you for a life full of happiness and health!
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